Christmas will be different

It is the christmas season...
what should I expect?

Sometimes I wonder if this year, christmas is going to be different.
Being in a different continent,
different environment,
different friends,
different hopes and expectations,
different ways of living,
different ideals,
different desires,
different goals,

everything so different...
different.

If I was a guardian angel,
I'd send you your one wish,
and that is for me to have a good christmas this year.
The same wish you wish for every year.

This year is gonna be so different,
first christmas without you in a long time...
I dont know what to expect,
maybe I should not expect anything,
that way I might just enjoy every bit that is gonna take place...

But love,
Things are so different for me this christmas,
So maybe it's this year, that will make a difference....

a difference for me,
a difference for you,
and a difference for us...

but maybe not...
I am sorry I cant be there this christmas...

My heart still pains for you everyday...
and I am waiting to be in you arms again,
if you give me that chance....

Im hoping for a different christmas this year...

(oh gosh... Here I go expecting too much again.)

to you my love,
always and forever...