Sunday, June 08, 2008

Moving on

I finally finished my law degree.
Im home. (or at least it's where my family lives)

It has been so different.
The place looks the same.
Nothings changed.
the billboard still parading the event that took place 3 years ago,
the mamak man still making food in the heat,
the forces still taking bribes,
the heat, still ridiculous.

But now I feel something missing.
Has the world moved on without me?
Did the tiger roar when everyone was sleeping?

Why wont he fight for me?

The one that makes me happy,
now chooses to keep his distance,
and draw his own path on the ground.

Gone are the days when he went out of the way, just to see me.
gone are the days when he did not care about anything, unless if it was about me.
gone are those days....

now everything is different...

and I have to make a decision as to what it is I want to do about it.

As of today, I will return to the UK in exactly 3 months. Yes I booked my ticket today.
I cant stop thinking whether I am worth the fight? coz I would have given up a long time ago....

I cant decide. I dont want to.

sigh.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I dropped by ur blog just to say hi... instead i was distracted by ur posts... i just like ur writing style.. vivid imagery... anyhow... congrats on the law degree.... cya around - Michael l.r.

Rose Kuruvilla said...

funny... michael l.r. stopping by and complimenting on my writing skills. haha. how are you doing anyways?

Anonymous said...

haha how is that funny? it was good! i liked the choice of objects.. i could easily visualize the billboard etc...

im doing good... i ran into ralph a couple days back

Sach said...

hey rose.. its ur sach from the UK here :)..

Lovely words as Michael said..

just thought id drop by your blog here.. im liking it.. hope everything is ok.. and hope to hear from you soon.. tc..

Sach and Subway :p..

:)

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