Gossip
My dear friend Gossip,
My life is not about me,
its all about you!
All my past, my history
told as something brand new.
The love to recall my past,
was an aimed target,
to mocking a single cast
for a confused Malayalee to regret.
Why am I disturbed
with this act that you do?
Have I not studied and read
your character like you do?
I can't run away, as you
will continue to haunt,
as long as I am Malayalee,
my life story will be flaunt.
So like I said,
My life is not about me,
its all about you!
Yours truly,
an innocent confused Malayalee
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Monday, March 14, 2005
Why did I dream of you last night?
Why did I dream of you last night?
Why did I dream of you last night?
Now morning is pushing back hair with grey light
Memories strike home, like slaps in the face;
Raised on elbow, I stare at the pale fog
beyond the window.
So many things I had thought forgotten
Return to my mind with stranger pain:
- Like letters that arrive addressed to someone
Who left the house so many years ago.
- Philip Larkin -
Why did I dream of you last night? The roaring winds call me to awake in silence. I walk towards the rustling sound coming from a dark corner of my house, the abandoned balcony- the only part of my house that is not painted purple due to some silly feng shui belief. I walk with curiousity wondering what lay there that wait for me. I step into the dark and cold balcony, I feel the chills of the wind getting to me.
"Arghhhh!!!" I scream suddenly looking at her staring straight back at me filled with anger, hatred, and... guilt. It was as if she was trying to tell me something. Something I needed to know. Something she knew I did. Something I was hiding, that could ruin me. The possibillities just multiply clouding my thoughts. Everthig starts to spin, I did not know what was happening. I am filled with so much shame and guilt and she knew what I had done. "No!!!"
I find myself lying on the dusty wooden floor of my balcony. I get up and notice a tall mirror with a crack on it standing in front of me. She was still standing there looking at me. Why was she there? Why did I dream of you last night? Who are you and what do you want from me?
Suddenly I knew who she was. She was a reflection of a cold me, so cold filled with anger, shame, and guilt. Why was she here to remind me of all this?
Why did I dream of you last night?
(This story is fictional, so dont get any weird ideas!) Guilt Haunts...
Why did I dream of you last night?
Now morning is pushing back hair with grey light
Memories strike home, like slaps in the face;
Raised on elbow, I stare at the pale fog
beyond the window.
So many things I had thought forgotten
Return to my mind with stranger pain:
- Like letters that arrive addressed to someone
Who left the house so many years ago.
- Philip Larkin -
Why did I dream of you last night? The roaring winds call me to awake in silence. I walk towards the rustling sound coming from a dark corner of my house, the abandoned balcony- the only part of my house that is not painted purple due to some silly feng shui belief. I walk with curiousity wondering what lay there that wait for me. I step into the dark and cold balcony, I feel the chills of the wind getting to me.
"Arghhhh!!!" I scream suddenly looking at her staring straight back at me filled with anger, hatred, and... guilt. It was as if she was trying to tell me something. Something I needed to know. Something she knew I did. Something I was hiding, that could ruin me. The possibillities just multiply clouding my thoughts. Everthig starts to spin, I did not know what was happening. I am filled with so much shame and guilt and she knew what I had done. "No!!!"
I find myself lying on the dusty wooden floor of my balcony. I get up and notice a tall mirror with a crack on it standing in front of me. She was still standing there looking at me. Why was she there? Why did I dream of you last night? Who are you and what do you want from me?
Suddenly I knew who she was. She was a reflection of a cold me, so cold filled with anger, shame, and guilt. Why was she here to remind me of all this?
Why did I dream of you last night?
(This story is fictional, so dont get any weird ideas!) Guilt Haunts...
Thursday, March 03, 2005
Wishing hard
Wishing hard
I gripped my purple pilot shaker mechanical pencil hard. It was so hard to concentrate on what lay in front of me, my literature notes on poetry. I must say poetry was something that always appealed to me. I loved the style of expressing one's feeling through poetry. Sometimes even sad feelings can be so passionately read that it moves the readers mind and touches their heart. Off course it is still based on how the reader interprets it.
This was different though. This was not reading the poem or interpreting it, this was reading a guideline on how to interpret a poem using the right words, style and structure. It was basically what we are required to do at A-levels.
I felt the head ache taking over my body. I just could not get the reason of which we had to learn these terms. I felt my head start to spin, and the veins start to throb, and my vision blurry. What was happening to me? I closed my eyes, and just wished that the unseen poetry test we had tomorrow would be cancelled. After a brief pause, I opened my eyes, looked at the sheet of paper that lay just before me. I could not go through the reading. I had to close it. It just was not my day to read notes. I felt pain in me, as if I could not understand why I would have to go through this mental block since I do love poetry. I wished there would be no writing tomorrow, I wished hard, and fell asleep.
The next morning I rush to class, already 10 minutes late. As I arrive at college, I see a friend standing there looking dumb. Obviously wishing he had more sleep. As he looks at me, he says," class is cancelled!" I stood there at that moment wondering to myself if I was responsible for that. Wow! Did my wish really come-true? Was class cancelled because I wished that it would?
Sometimes wishing hard can change things the way you want it to, but then again there must be someone kind enough to grant these wishes true. Maybe it is just I. Maybe its just coincidence or maybe I have some kind of power, a power to conquer, and to change...
I gripped my purple pilot shaker mechanical pencil hard. It was so hard to concentrate on what lay in front of me, my literature notes on poetry. I must say poetry was something that always appealed to me. I loved the style of expressing one's feeling through poetry. Sometimes even sad feelings can be so passionately read that it moves the readers mind and touches their heart. Off course it is still based on how the reader interprets it.
This was different though. This was not reading the poem or interpreting it, this was reading a guideline on how to interpret a poem using the right words, style and structure. It was basically what we are required to do at A-levels.
I felt the head ache taking over my body. I just could not get the reason of which we had to learn these terms. I felt my head start to spin, and the veins start to throb, and my vision blurry. What was happening to me? I closed my eyes, and just wished that the unseen poetry test we had tomorrow would be cancelled. After a brief pause, I opened my eyes, looked at the sheet of paper that lay just before me. I could not go through the reading. I had to close it. It just was not my day to read notes. I felt pain in me, as if I could not understand why I would have to go through this mental block since I do love poetry. I wished there would be no writing tomorrow, I wished hard, and fell asleep.
The next morning I rush to class, already 10 minutes late. As I arrive at college, I see a friend standing there looking dumb. Obviously wishing he had more sleep. As he looks at me, he says," class is cancelled!" I stood there at that moment wondering to myself if I was responsible for that. Wow! Did my wish really come-true? Was class cancelled because I wished that it would?
Sometimes wishing hard can change things the way you want it to, but then again there must be someone kind enough to grant these wishes true. Maybe it is just I. Maybe its just coincidence or maybe I have some kind of power, a power to conquer, and to change...
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Lack of Water vs Lack of Oxygen
Lack of Water vs Lack of Oxygen
I got myself involved in a debate over a friendly conversation with a friend of mine last week. The topic was Lack of Water vs Lack of oxygen. This debate only started because I had said that "80% of your headache's today are due to lack of water!" The line my mother always uses on me when I get little aches and pains. I was strongly opposed by my friend, as he believed that if it was 80%, it had to be lack of oxygen and not water.
Water is a fundamental part of our lives. It is easy to forget how completely we depend on it. Human survival is dependent on water . Water has been ranked by experts as second only to oxygen as essential for life, but that does not prove that most of your problems today are due to lack of oxygen.
Our bodies are not designed for low levels of oxygen, such as 20%, harmful toxins accumulate in our blood streams, cells, tissues, and organs, thus we still need water to clear these harmful toxins. We can live for weeks without food, for days without water; but we can only live for minutes without oxygen! As you read this post, you can live for at least another hour without having something to eat or drink, but if you do not breathe, you will fall off your chair and die within minutes.
This is all true, but my argument my friend is that "80% of your problems today are due to lack of water" Yes, we do need oxygen to survive, but most of our little aches and pains are not due to lack of oxygen but water.
I open this post to my fellow bloggers, you decide! water or oxygen? Which will it be? Start the debates.
I got myself involved in a debate over a friendly conversation with a friend of mine last week. The topic was Lack of Water vs Lack of oxygen. This debate only started because I had said that "80% of your headache's today are due to lack of water!" The line my mother always uses on me when I get little aches and pains. I was strongly opposed by my friend, as he believed that if it was 80%, it had to be lack of oxygen and not water.
Water is a fundamental part of our lives. It is easy to forget how completely we depend on it. Human survival is dependent on water . Water has been ranked by experts as second only to oxygen as essential for life, but that does not prove that most of your problems today are due to lack of oxygen.
Our bodies are not designed for low levels of oxygen, such as 20%, harmful toxins accumulate in our blood streams, cells, tissues, and organs, thus we still need water to clear these harmful toxins. We can live for weeks without food, for days without water; but we can only live for minutes without oxygen! As you read this post, you can live for at least another hour without having something to eat or drink, but if you do not breathe, you will fall off your chair and die within minutes.
This is all true, but my argument my friend is that "80% of your problems today are due to lack of water" Yes, we do need oxygen to survive, but most of our little aches and pains are not due to lack of oxygen but water.
I open this post to my fellow bloggers, you decide! water or oxygen? Which will it be? Start the debates.
Friday, February 25, 2005
Screen saver
Screen Savers
It has been bugging me so much that the work load at college has increased, my new teachers do not allow me to voice my opinions more than once and all my other little personal problems take place all at the same time. What do you do when your day just keeps getting worse?
Here is a solution. Try watching your screen saver in action! Got this idea from my sister and it really works. Now save those screen savers that move in abstract form like the one of the pipes filling the screen. Now having loads of things on my mind, I glanced a quick look at a friends lap top while the screen saver was on, it quickly drew my attention away from everything else. At that moment, it was as if I had just seen the most handsome guy on earth. Nope, it was more around the lines that it was something so cool, so different, so distracting.
Did you ever think that a bunch of pipes filling a screen could clear your mind from everything else? Well it surely works. It could be a great way to meditate. Want to get some stuff off your mind? Watch your screen savers!
It has been bugging me so much that the work load at college has increased, my new teachers do not allow me to voice my opinions more than once and all my other little personal problems take place all at the same time. What do you do when your day just keeps getting worse?
Here is a solution. Try watching your screen saver in action! Got this idea from my sister and it really works. Now save those screen savers that move in abstract form like the one of the pipes filling the screen. Now having loads of things on my mind, I glanced a quick look at a friends lap top while the screen saver was on, it quickly drew my attention away from everything else. At that moment, it was as if I had just seen the most handsome guy on earth. Nope, it was more around the lines that it was something so cool, so different, so distracting.
Did you ever think that a bunch of pipes filling a screen could clear your mind from everything else? Well it surely works. It could be a great way to meditate. Want to get some stuff off your mind? Watch your screen savers!
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Our top park
Our top park
The grass is green
wet and soaking;
the swings all seem
cold, no swinging.
Your absense molds
this park to be;
what it now holds
for you and me.
In the stillness
wonder and beauty;
it feels the warm less
without you, just me.
(dedicated to my monkey)
The grass is green
wet and soaking;
the swings all seem
cold, no swinging.
Your absense molds
this park to be;
what it now holds
for you and me.
In the stillness
wonder and beauty;
it feels the warm less
without you, just me.
(dedicated to my monkey)
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Cool watermelon
Cool watermelon
Lately the weather as been really hot making us release a large amount of sweat, and craving for a nice cold glass of water. Did you know that eating a watermelon is much more cooling than drinking an ice cold glass of water? Well, I just got to know that as I was eating one I realised that watermelons was something I could put on my blog today. So I started surfing the net and found loads of information and recipe ideas on watermelons. There was a study conducted by University of Leeds, UK that Watermelon has 53% more cooling effect than a ice cold glass of water. So why dont we all crave for watermelon rather than an ice cold glass of water?
After all Watermelon is also very nutrious as well as a good prevention to certain disease. Watermelons are low in calories.Watermelon is high in lycopene, second only to tomatoes. Recent research suggests that lycopene, a powerful antioxidant, is effective in preventing some forms of cancer and cardiovascular disease. According to research conducted at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill, men who consumed a lycopene-rich diet were half as likely to suffer a heart attack as those who had little or no lycopene in their diets. Watermelon is also high in Vitamin C and Vitamin A, in the form of disease fighting beta-carotene. Research also suggests that the red pigmented foods provide this protection. Lycopene and beta-carotene work in conjunction with other plant chemicals not found in vitamin/mineral supplements. Potassium is also available, which is believed to help control blood pressure and possibly prevent strokes.
Watermelon is truly one of summertime’s sweetest treats. It is fun to eat, and good for you. Sometimes on a hot day i feel like pouring ice water on my head. So here is an idea, smash watermelon all over your body! hehehe....alright bad idea as its a little too messy.
Want some watermelon recipes which I found off the net:
Watermelon Granita
5 cups seeded watermelon pulp
1 cup sugar syrup*
2 tablespoons fresh lemon juice
Thin watermelon wedges, cut into strips for a garnish
1. Puree watermelon in a food processor.
2. Pour into a 9 x 13 inch baking dish. Stir in the syrup and lemon juice. Freeze for about 4 hours or until frozen solid.
3. To serve, scrape up granita with a large spoon and place in goblets, tulip shaped wine glasses or ice cream dishes. Garnish with a narrow wedge of watermelon. Makes 4 servings.
*To make sugar syrup; Combine 1/2 cup water and 1 cup sugar in a saucepan. Bring to a boil over medium-high heat. Boil for one minute. Stirring constantly until all of the sugar has dissolved. Cool in the refrigerator.
Watermelon Smoothie
1 - 8 ounce lemon, fat-free yogurt
3 cups cubed, seeded watermelon
1 pint fresh strawberries, cleaned and hulled
1 tablespoon honey or strawberry jam
3 ice cubes
1. In a blender or food processor, combine yogurt, watermelon, strawberries, honey and ice cubes.
2. Process until smooth and frothy. Serve in tall glasses with a straw. Makes 4 servings.
Well that is all I have to say about watermelons. Have a good day, and don't forget if your feeling hot to drink a nice cold glass of watermelon juice. Cools you down!
Lately the weather as been really hot making us release a large amount of sweat, and craving for a nice cold glass of water. Did you know that eating a watermelon is much more cooling than drinking an ice cold glass of water? Well, I just got to know that as I was eating one I realised that watermelons was something I could put on my blog today. So I started surfing the net and found loads of information and recipe ideas on watermelons. There was a study conducted by University of Leeds, UK that Watermelon has 53% more cooling effect than a ice cold glass of water. So why dont we all crave for watermelon rather than an ice cold glass of water?
After all Watermelon is also very nutrious as well as a good prevention to certain disease. Watermelons are low in calories.Watermelon is high in lycopene, second only to tomatoes. Recent research suggests that lycopene, a powerful antioxidant, is effective in preventing some forms of cancer and cardiovascular disease. According to research conducted at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill, men who consumed a lycopene-rich diet were half as likely to suffer a heart attack as those who had little or no lycopene in their diets. Watermelon is also high in Vitamin C and Vitamin A, in the form of disease fighting beta-carotene. Research also suggests that the red pigmented foods provide this protection. Lycopene and beta-carotene work in conjunction with other plant chemicals not found in vitamin/mineral supplements. Potassium is also available, which is believed to help control blood pressure and possibly prevent strokes.
Watermelon is truly one of summertime’s sweetest treats. It is fun to eat, and good for you. Sometimes on a hot day i feel like pouring ice water on my head. So here is an idea, smash watermelon all over your body! hehehe....alright bad idea as its a little too messy.
Want some watermelon recipes which I found off the net:
Watermelon Granita
5 cups seeded watermelon pulp
1 cup sugar syrup*
2 tablespoons fresh lemon juice
Thin watermelon wedges, cut into strips for a garnish
1. Puree watermelon in a food processor.
2. Pour into a 9 x 13 inch baking dish. Stir in the syrup and lemon juice. Freeze for about 4 hours or until frozen solid.
3. To serve, scrape up granita with a large spoon and place in goblets, tulip shaped wine glasses or ice cream dishes. Garnish with a narrow wedge of watermelon. Makes 4 servings.
*To make sugar syrup; Combine 1/2 cup water and 1 cup sugar in a saucepan. Bring to a boil over medium-high heat. Boil for one minute. Stirring constantly until all of the sugar has dissolved. Cool in the refrigerator.
Watermelon Smoothie
1 - 8 ounce lemon, fat-free yogurt
3 cups cubed, seeded watermelon
1 pint fresh strawberries, cleaned and hulled
1 tablespoon honey or strawberry jam
3 ice cubes
1. In a blender or food processor, combine yogurt, watermelon, strawberries, honey and ice cubes.
2. Process until smooth and frothy. Serve in tall glasses with a straw. Makes 4 servings.
Well that is all I have to say about watermelons. Have a good day, and don't forget if your feeling hot to drink a nice cold glass of watermelon juice. Cools you down!
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